My life

P*M*S=Plese Mother*ucke* Shut UP!!!!! I swear to all that is holy, if the man does not stop asking me if I’m going to be all right I’m going to kill him.  I’ve told him more then once that I have really bad P*M*S this month.  I just want to rip someones head off, and he keeps asking me stuff like that.  Silly man…. I’m going to train him not to ask that damn annoying question.  I do feel bad that I yelled at him.  I really do hate feeling like this.  At one time I took meds for PMDD.  I was really bad then.  I feel the same feelings now, so I have to becareful.  See I didn’t have my friend for 5 years cause I had an IUD.  I loved that time in my life. LOL  Now my hormones are all messed up and the man and boy have to pay for it.  I hate that part.  I will say the man knows when to shut up. LOL  He told me he understands, but I know there is no way he can understand.  So in the mean time just STFU. LOL

well me and the honey are doing on a date tonight.  we are heading down to Del. to get some crabs and maybe hit AC while we are at it.  So wish me some luck on the slots!!!!  I’m out of here…..See ya on the flip

Well I went out and got myself a new car.  I love it.  It’s a Toy*ta Ra*4.  I can’t believe I did it.  My payments are a bit higher but it’s all good.  I can afford it. It may be tight, but I will do it.  I’m still not smoking, so that’s an awesome thing.  Now I just have to work on my eating and then I will be good.  The man has been talking about moving it, so I’m happy about that.  Things are good here on my end.  Just wantedt to drop a line.

Well Sunday night at 9:30PM was a full week that I have not smoked.  I have to tell you I feel great. I stopped the patch today so we shall see how it goes.  So far so good.  I really do not have any desire to smoke at all.  I want to eat healthy stuff, but I have been eating lots of junk.  Well I’m craving healthy stuff is what I should say. LOL  I will get there.  I’m keeping a close eye on my weight and really watching what I’m putting in to my mouth.  I’m hoping to drop a few pounds soon. 

On other note, my mom starts chemo today.  It’s one treatment a month for 4 months.  She will lose her hair within two weeks.  So it must be a powerful cocktail of drugs.  She is having a hard time with my stepdad.  Sometimes he does not think about stuff.  So far he has not really asked her about the treatments or anything.  He better steop up to the plate and be there for her. 

Well today is Day 1 on the patch to quit smoking.  So far so good.  It’s been on for about 2 hours now and I don’t want to smoke.  SO that’s a good thing.  I really need to quit, so I’m giving it a shot.  Say some prayers for me. LOL  I should do fine.  Hopefully once the first week is over it won’t be so bad.  I figure I should save about 120 bucks a month on not smoking.  With my savings I might join one of those 30 minutes gyms.  We shall see.  I need to diet too, but hell I’m not going to shock my body that much.  I will slowly record and watch what I’m eating.  Once I beat the smoking thing, then I will really hit the diet thing.  I would like to lose at least 10 or so pounds before my bday.  Wish me luck

Well things have been quite here in the corner of my world.  I did have a 4th of July BBQ.  Well I should say I planned one. LOL  The lovely weather here in NJ was not on my side.  I was supposed to have about 10 people, but only one showed. LOL  Can you feel the love????  One friend of mine was in from Ohio, she was supposed to come, but went back to Ohio.  Gotta love that.  Then my other friend stayed home cause of the weather, which I can’t blame her.  The only person to show up was a buddy of my man’s.  We all still have a great time.  Then on Saturday I went to the Phill*ies game with the man and his boys.  I had a great time.  I made my self a phill*ies phanatic at the buil*d a B*ear workshop.  That was fun.  He’s really cute.  My boy went with Grand-mom and had a blast too.  He got to go to the movies, and played and was spoiled.  On Sunday we did nothing but rest and clean. LOL  I asked the ex hubby to help off set some of the costs for the trips and stuff for the boy.  Of course I got no response from that email.  We have not heard from him since Father’s day.  Oh well once again he’s a fuc*ing loser.  Now that he’s married AGAIN I’m sure we won’t hear from him.  Which to be honest is for the best.  I just wish at times he would step up.  I mean just for the summer program my son is in has cost my $338 in trips, plus $172 per week costs.  So that’s a lot of freaking money.  So I thought asking the ex for $40 bucks for his uniform was not out of line.  OH well once a loser, always a loser.  Ok enough of that subject…..  I’m going to try to quit smoking.  I did good for a few days, but started again.  This time I have the patch so we shall see what happens.  I really need to quit.  I’m also going to try to cut back on the eating.  I have not been doing well at ALL on that front.  It’s hard when your man likes to eat and cook.  Well I guess that’s all for now…. Aren’t you glad you stopped by??? LOL

Hey You.  I know you are reading me from the shore area.  It’s cool I don’t mind.  So how is Mom?  Is she feeling better?  Did they fix her stomach? Drop me an email or a txt or a comment.  See ya hope all is well.

I’ve been feeling really restless lately.  I’m not really sure why.  Well I have an idea.  Right now I have my roof ripped off with just paper down on it and that’s freaking my the f*** out.  I have some things inside my house i need to get rid of.  I guess when I feel like my house is to cluttered I get nuts.  I’m not a neat freak by any means, it’s just to much clutter freaks me out.  I’m sure I’ll figure it out.  I want to sell the house, but I don’t want to sell the house.  I see so many nice places, but they are to much money for me to afford alone.  Ok what else it going on?? Oh yeah me and the man had our one year anniversary on Sunday.  It was a very nice day.  Well I’m off to work.  See ya

Well not to much going on in my little world.  I wanted to sell my house, but I don’t think I’m going to.  I have a lot of work to do on it.  The nice thing is I don’t HAVE to go anywhere.  I just wanted to get a new house so I have a yard for the kid to play in.  I have a yard, but I would like a bigger one so there is room for a swing set.  Things are happy around my little world.  The job is going well, my life is going well.  So things are good right now. 

Well mom had her surgery today.  Thank God no lymph nodes were affected, and they got the lump.  Now on to radiation.  I’m just super happy right now that things are good.  I just wish they could get rid of this beast called cancer.  Well just wanted to update.  See ya…..