My life

Well things have been quite here in the corner of my world.  I did have a 4th of July BBQ.  Well I should say I planned one. LOL  The lovely weather here in NJ was not on my side.  I was supposed to have about 10 people, but only one showed. LOL  Can you feel the love????  One friend of mine was in from Ohio, she was supposed to come, but went back to Ohio.  Gotta love that.  Then my other friend stayed home cause of the weather, which I can’t blame her.  The only person to show up was a buddy of my man’s.  We all still have a great time.  Then on Saturday I went to the Phill*ies game with the man and his boys.  I had a great time.  I made my self a phill*ies phanatic at the buil*d a B*ear workshop.  That was fun.  He’s really cute.  My boy went with Grand-mom and had a blast too.  He got to go to the movies, and played and was spoiled.  On Sunday we did nothing but rest and clean. LOL  I asked the ex hubby to help off set some of the costs for the trips and stuff for the boy.  Of course I got no response from that email.  We have not heard from him since Father’s day.  Oh well once again he’s a fuc*ing loser.  Now that he’s married AGAIN I’m sure we won’t hear from him.  Which to be honest is for the best.  I just wish at times he would step up.  I mean just for the summer program my son is in has cost my $338 in trips, plus $172 per week costs.  So that’s a lot of freaking money.  So I thought asking the ex for $40 bucks for his uniform was not out of line.  OH well once a loser, always a loser.  Ok enough of that subject…..  I’m going to try to quit smoking.  I did good for a few days, but started again.  This time I have the patch so we shall see what happens.  I really need to quit.  I’m also going to try to cut back on the eating.  I have not been doing well at ALL on that front.  It’s hard when your man likes to eat and cook.  Well I guess that’s all for now…. Aren’t you glad you stopped by??? LOL

Well hello everyone.  Is there anyone still out here??? LOL  Sorry so long between updates.  Well lets get right to the dirt shall we?  Ok last entry talked about changing my son’s meds, well that lasted the weekend before I put him right back on his old meds.  The new ones lasted oh about 5 hours tops.  I could not have that.  I was ready to duck tape the poor boy. LOL  So he’s doing a little better on the old meds.

Lets see what else.  Oh yeah my trip.  Man it was so nice to get away.  I had a blast.  I can’t wait to do it again.  Me and the man got to reconnect and have fun.  It was so worth the money and everything just for us to be alone.  I wish him and I could do that more often. 

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To my ex huband…. Would you kindly send your son’s Christmas and Birthday presents??? I mean come on, it’s now a month past Christmas and several weeks past his birthday.  He asks almost every freaking day if you sent them. Maybe I should just have him call you everytime he asks me.  Would you like that??? To hear your son beg for his friggin gifts…. I’m sure your new daughter does not have to wait, now does she?  Bastard

Hey everyone, I’m sorry but the letter will not be going up today.  I’m super busy and I got another court document that I have to gather all my crap for.  I will post it don’t you worry about that.  Right now I need to get my ducks in a row so to speak. 

Oh yeah IS IT FRIDAY YET??????

Ok I’m going to post the letter from the ex later on tonight so y’all can see why I’m pi$$ed.  I will be putting this as a private entry, so you will need to login in.  If you do not have an id, please register.  If you don’t know how to register, send me an email and I’ll tell ya.  I can’t put it out here for the whole world to see just in case I get go*ogled

I just got an email lastnight from the Ex. all I can tell you is I’m freaking PISSED right now. I can’t even think straight. I’m going to have to take f’ing time off from work to go to court. I’m going to freak out. I can’t handle much more stress. I’m already wound tighter then a bulls ass. I can’t even think about anything else right now, this is going to consume me and I can’t stand that. I’m going to have to fight and fight hard to keep my son. I’ll fill you in later, I just can’t even begin to think right

As many long time readers know, my door for my ex stepkids has always been open for them.  I’ve told them more then once if they need a place or someone to talk to, call me.  Well that door is now being closed for one of my stepkids and it hurts that I must do this.  The oldest stepson has taken it apon himself to call me and talk about visitation stuff.  He’s been asking for the past 2 years at least about when my son(his little bro) will be coming down to Florida for a visit.  I’ve told him more then once that is not going to happen, my son is to young and my son has to many health issues to be sent 1200 miles away.  Well lastnight was the final straw.  The kid called me up and preceeded to ask if my son was going to fly down with the other 3 step kids for a month visit.  Again I told him I will not send a 5 year old away for a month on a plane with a 19, 15, 15 year old.  It’s not going to happen.  My son is also on daily meds that would run out while he’s down there.  So of course the oldest step son has an answer for everthing.  LIke if his meds run out I can mail them down there.  Well yeah ok sounds good, but wath does my son do during those 2 or 3 days when the meds are being mailed?  He can not be with out his meds that long.  These are his asthma and allergy meds were talking about.  Hell he can’t even make it to the 24 hour mark sometimes. 

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Ok, I must know this. How can you pack up one life and just leave to another one? I mean my ex just packed up and left. Not caring who’s life he destroyed in the process. He is with his girlfriend now, which hey if she wants his sorry ass then go for it. The only thing that gets me is I’m stuck holding the bag. I have to come up with soooo much money to file bankruptcy!! He has put nothing towards this. He ran up the debt running with his girlfriend. I just don’t understand some people. Maybe I’m not normal, but I care what I do to people. Well he screwed with karma and he will get his. He left behind four of his 5 kids. How can you do that? I would NEVER do something like that!!! I would fight and fight for my kids. Oh well I guess that’s just me. He is missing out on watching his youngest son grow up. His youngest child is mine and his. Well the child is now MY son. I mean I’m the one that has to raise him. My ex is now 1200 miles away, so he has no say in what goes on. I’m also raising HIS daughter from his 1st marriage. Now how strange is that? Well this is my life. I’m in the process of trying to find love again, I hope I do find it. I’m a good person, and I have a lot to offer someone. There is one person I would really like to get to know better. We talk a lot on the phone but we just can’t seem to get to meet each other. This guy seems pretty nice, I would like for things to go forward. Only God knows if it will. Well that’s enough for now. Hope you like my life. LOL BYE