My life

I’m so mad at the world right now it’s not even funny.  I’m in a pissy mood and I don’t know why.  I feel like I’m going to explode on everyone.  I’m tired, not sleeping and just blah.  Everyone is pissing me off to know end.  I’m pissed at Gary for what he did over the weekend.  I’m sure he doesn’t even think he did anything wrong.  I’m feeling like shit about myself.  I just want to run away.  I feel like I need a break from life for a bit, but what is that going to solve.  Everything will still be here after my break.  I just want to be left alone for a few hours, but then again being a single mom that is not even an option.  I want to sleep right but I’m not.  I don’t know if it’s a delayed reaction to my mom’s cancer, or if it’s PMS or if it’s cause I have to get a repeat test done.  I’m tired of doctors, I’m tired of tests that cost tons of money.  I’m plan of freaking tired.  Just once in my life I would like a little down time with nothing to do.  Just some peace and quite.  I want a job where I don’t have to deal with an asshole who thinks he’s god’s gift to IT.  I think I just need to explode somewhere in peace.  I want to tell Rob some things that are bothing me, but not really sure if they are bothering me or just bothering me because everything is bothering me.  I hate this kinda of mood.  I have not had this in a long time.  I’m tired of the ex claiming he loves my son, then never calls.  I’m tired of the ex alwasy have the good life, then crying he’s poor.  Yeah he’s freaking poor, but yet has several horses.  I’m tired of always haveing to fight for everything.  I would like to be taken care of for a bit.  Not for a long time, beause I would hate that.  Just for a few days.  Someone to wait on me.  Someone to do for me.  I seem to be doing for everyone and I get nothing in return.  Well no I can’t really say that, I do get things in return.  See, can you see the mood I’m in???? Oh well I better end here.