My life

Excuse my words, but cancer can kiss my ass.  I’m scared and mad today.  I really don’t want my mom to go through this.  I just hate that she has to go through this.  I’m not ready to lose her yet and I pray to God that I don’t.  I will be there with her every step of the way,but damn.  I’m only 37 not ready to lose my mom.  She has to much yet to see and do.  She has 3 grandkids that need Grandmom.  Hell I still need her.  Cancer, it’s a scary word.  It makes  you think, it makes you cry, it makes you fear.  I don’t like to do any of those things.  But one word has brought me to that place.  It’s a scary place.  I just want to kick cancer in the face.  I want to kill it like it kills so many.  I just want to scream and shout and be pissed at cancer.  I don’t want to do this.  I just want to run away.  I know I can’t, but damn.  I hope and pray she beats this, I hope I don’t have to tell my son that Grandmom is sick or worse yet gone.  Cancer can kiss my ass the bastard.