Good News

Well I finally did something for myself.  I got myself a new KITTY!!!! He’s a real cutie.  Here is a pic. Wow finally got a pic up on here.  Damn I’m good.  Well while we are at it I’ll post a pic of the boy

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C*A*N*C*E*R

Excuse my words, but cancer can kiss my ass.  I’m scared and mad today.  I really don’t want my mom to go through this.  I just hate that she has to go through this.  I’m not ready to lose her yet and I pray to God that I don’t.  I will be there with her every step of the way,but damn.  I’m only 37 not ready to lose my mom.  She has to much yet to see and do.  She has 3 grandkids that need Grandmom.  Hell I still need her.  Cancer, it’s a scary word.  It makes  you think, it makes you cry, it makes you fear.  I don’t like to do any of those things.  But one word has brought me to that place.  It’s a scary place.  I just want to kick cancer in the face.  I want to kill it like it kills so many.  I just want to scream and shout and be pissed at cancer.  I don’t want to do this.  I just want to run away.  I know I can’t, but damn.  I hope and pray she beats this, I hope I don’t have to tell my son that Grandmom is sick or worse yet gone.  Cancer can kiss my ass the bastard.

A phone call I never wanted….

Me: Hello

Mom: yeah it’s me, are you busy?

me: Just waiting for dinner, what’s up?

Mom: (deep breath) Well I have breast cancer.

Me: WHAT?? WTF? WHEN, HOW HUH?

mom: the doctor just called me, I had a biopsy on moday. It’s cancer

me: what stage, what kind? Why didn’t you tell me?

mom: I didn’t want to say anything until I knew for sure. I found the lump last week. I go back to the doctors on the 12th to find out what we are going to do

Me: Can I go with you?

mom: sure if you want,

So there you have it. My mother has breast cancer. Fuck. We will beat it I hope. I will be there for her.  I will go get check and do exams now too.  This just sucks.

10 Lbs…..

Well I’m down ten pounds!!!! Whoo Hoo….  I’m super happy.  It’s been about a month since I started to diet.  So I’m cool with 10 pounds in a month.  I need to increase my veggies, but I will get there. 

Anthony started a new med with his ad*hd.  He takes it in the morning when I put on his patch.  It seems his morning is really rough and sets the day to bad. 

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Hey How the hell are ya????

Well hello everyone.  Is there anyone still out here??? LOL  Sorry so long between updates.  Well lets get right to the dirt shall we?  Ok last entry talked about changing my son’s meds, well that lasted the weekend before I put him right back on his old meds.  The new ones lasted oh about 5 hours tops.  I could not have that.  I was ready to duck tape the poor boy. LOL  So he’s doing a little better on the old meds.

Lets see what else.  Oh yeah my trip.  Man it was so nice to get away.  I had a blast.  I can’t wait to do it again.  Me and the man got to reconnect and have fun.  It was so worth the money and everything just for us to be alone.  I wish him and I could do that more often. 

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Changing Meds….

OMG help me… We changed meds for my son on Friday.  Help me know.  I do NOT like this new meds.  I need to let it work for about 2 weeks before I make a choice if it’s the right one.  I have to say I like the patch that he was on.  It was easy and worked well.  I wish they made a stronger size.  No now we are on a pill that is supposed to last over 8 hours.  Well let me tell you, it does NOT.  Yesterday was one hell of a day.  I hope it gets in is system soon.  He is sleeping longer though, that I will say.  The  past two mornings he has slept until 8!!!! That’s unheard of, he’s NEVER done that.  So wish me and the school luck for the next two weeks.  It’s going to be rough, but we will make it through.

Ps. Oh yeah he got his gifts on Friday, almost 3months to the day after christmas.

Going on a trip….

Well I’m going on a weekend trip in April.  I can’t wait.  Me and the man are heading down to the inner houbor in MD.  We leave on Friday and come back on Sunday.  My boy will be with my mom.  I can’t wait.  I’m hoping this weekend will help bring some of the spark back to us.  I’m sure it will.  Things are getting back to normal and that’s a good thing.  I wonder why when men get stressed they get withdrawn.  Anyone know the answer to that?  This is not the first man to do this.  I’ve known several that have all done this.  Not only to me, but in other relationships as well.  We had a good weekend this weekend.  Let’s see what else…. Oh I’m almost done school.  Two more weeks and I’m done.  I’ll start back up in September.  So I will have the whole summer off.  YEAH.  I’m also starting a new way of eating, so look out for some lovely rants coming up. LOL  Work is busy as crap.  So that’s why I have not been updating.  I’m also addicted to W*orld of W*arcraft.  Man that game rocks.  Well that’s all for now.  See ya on the flip side.  Oh yeah the jerk still has not sent his son his gift.  What a lovely father huh?  LOL  I have some other rants about him, but you will have to register and login to read. If you want to register you will have to send me an email, I disabled auto registration because I was getting so much spam.  I will be more then happy to add you, just drop me a note.  Oh yeah one last thing.. Ms. Sandy, where did you go?

Romance….

How do you get the romance back in to your relationship?  Why does it go away to begin with?  Why does life get in the way of stuff?  I want to be pursued, I want to be cherished and made to feel like I’m special.  Is this to much to ask?  How do you keep the romance alive when you are not living together?  Just a few questions to ponder.  There are some private posts if you wan to log in and read.  See ya on the flip side

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Prayers needed

My stepdad is in the ICU.  He has an infection and they don’t know what it is from.  Please say some prayers.  He has liver issues on top of all of this too.  His BP is 100/52.  Thanks.